Long Vacation - What will i do

nice song i heard from radio today... =)

This long weekend...

蛮多事情发生了。
所以感想也跟着多了。

有好多好多的方面要考虑。
事情原来并不是那么简单的。
人与人之间好复杂。
不想去理。
能单纯多好。

可能是我想得太多了。
顾虑得太多。
但是我不能不去理那一切的一切。

其实我蛮害怕的。
突然觉得好恐怖。
=P

复杂。
混乱。

我不会解决的事，
我只会让它顺其自然。

Photos!!

pix from amplitude, present shopping n gd fri~

My Good Friday…

My good Friday was spent with my 2 different grps of frens…
The purpose was the same : to celebrate their belated bdays… =)

In e morn met w my gd jie meis… cch n hx…
Long time no meet them le!
I tink I really ai them…
Cos they r really nice n funnie n understanding ppl.. =)
Going out w them I can say wat I wan n juz spill out everything that I wan to…
They always give gd advice also.. haha.. =)
Thx for listening to my stories!!
I enjoyed listening to their updates too… =)
I feel like our lives r now so different…
Cch alrdy working v hard…
Hx alrdy in her final yr.. looking for job opportunities n stuff…
Me.. still a clueless yr 3 pharm student w no ambitions.. haha..

N we kept going to e electronics shop today..
cch bot a mini hifi… hx bot a digicam.. ( I tink both r gd deals!)
n in total we went to e same shop for 3-4 times…
until e uncle c us from afar will alrdy smile at us..
even gave us each a photo of us tat was developed from his photo printer n also his name card…haha.. I tink he is a nice uncle.. =)

kopi club has kopi tat’s too sweet.. =X
but e environment is v nice thou.. =)
gd for nua-ing n chatting..
I love e chair!! So comfy! Wan to bring it bac to hall! Haha..

In e evening met up w sh, pj, bert, hans for dinner at a place called friends…
=) q like e atmosphere there…
Food may be abit exp thou… =)

I tink today…
A lot of tot processes went on in my tiny head…
Abit overwhelmed…
Confusion… sadness… it’s juz all mixed tog now…
N I’m feeling a state of blankness?
Maybe I’m juz blocking out all e emotions…
Abit chim.. but I guess it’s e way my system works…

I tink I can quite get selfish at times…
During e times when I’m happy… someone else may be troubled?
When I dun even know wat I’m tinking at times… being so undecided n blur n whatever… am I hurting some ppl?
I guess I also can be a v bad person…
Always complaining abt ppl like jrm…
But I never jian tao myself…
It can be so difficult sometimes…

Like wat I told ylp…
Zibi is good sometimes… =)

But not too zibi.. cos actually…
I tink I need support a lot of times…

*photos another time...
i'm q tired...*

Long weekend!

Yesterday nite I went jogging w hans…
Haha.. amazingly la..
So stress lo…
Cos I am super slow tat type… den ppl is e duan pao jian jiang can…
Hahah… I tink he run damn slow to pei he wo…
So xing ku him…
We ran for like ½ hr… by tat time I’m panting like dunnoe wat alrdy…
Q long time since I ran for this long alrdy…
*lao ren jia*

Today was q a fa feng day…
Cos we had to do e urine expt.. which was real stinko…
Cannot take it.. e ammonia smell from e chemicals is super er xin… =X
N I tink adez is rather high today…
So we were sprouting nonsense e whole day la.. like stuff abt e south park episode.. abt e umbrella song.. muahahaha…
N she xian qi me watch Alvin n e chipmunks.. =P
N me n yj were trying to find her a suitable guy in pharm..
Trying to recommend Alvin to her.. but apparently..dotz.. haha..
Yup.. we were really nonsenseful today~~
Tink she is really q a fun person to be with.. haha.. full of nonsense n high also.. =P

Today I also met gor for dinner at engine fac..
Had my yummy hotplate as always!!
Haha.. something v funnie happen..
Cos gor din noe wat to eat.. n he finally decided to have hot plate but wanted to change e teriyaki chicken to cutlet.. but dunnoe can or not.. so he ask me to ask e uncle…
So I juz ask uncle: uncle, can change teriyaki chicken to cutlet?
Uncle: cooking alrdy… nxt time den change can?
Me: nono.. uncle.. I wan to add 1 more order..
Uncle: oorh…. Can can… *shouts order to kitchen* so u pay together or separate?
Me: *looks at gor, looks at uncle*
pay tog…
*hands ten dollar note to uncle*
Uncle: wah.. *looks at gor* u v lucky arh… she order for u… pay for u also.. this type of gal where to find..
Gor: haha.. find in nus pharmacy lo…
Uncle: hahaha. *v happy* wah.. ur reaction v fast arh~
*2 guys queuing in front of us try v hard not to laugh*

Muahaha.. I tink it’s super funnie de…
Tink e uncle like my gor alrdy.. heheh…
After dinner gor’s fren’s lao gong drive us bac to hall.. haha…
E guan xi like spread to v far~~
But ya.. thx for e comfy ride bac! =)

So we proceeded as planned.. watched e chipmunks on his lappie…
Finally watched it.. loves thedore!
He is sooooo sweet.. n soooo ke ai.. haha..

After e movie.. I got convinced by gor to go home tonite…
Haha… so I dragged all my heavy stuff home by myself…
So ke lianly la.. =P
But ya.. shall not complain abt it again.. q boring stuff…
=) happy holidays ppl!!
Have a gd rest n also be productive k!
Esp for ppl who have to hand in reports v v soon~~ =P

Blurrrr~

Yup... i have been v blur lately... =X
first of all...
i left my clothes at ucc after my amplitude performance..
n i din even realise it long after i reach my room n did alot of other stuff...
had to trouble ppl to help me bring bac... =X
thx loads to those involved! haha..

the performance turned out q oki i guess..
after singing e pasigin song over n over n over again before our our performance.. we finally rem most of e lyrics.. n managed to catch e rite key.. even thou there was a minor prob at e v beginning.. but luckily we had a perfect pitch in our choir.. he is li hai!!
=P anyway... so happy it is all over!!!
ohoh.. n i realised tat i am not as fu qian as i tot.. haha.. =P

nxt blur was mon...
i forgot to bring my qian bao to sch...
cos i changed bag.. so i forgot to transfer over..
aiz.. how forgetful can i get...
but luckily i stuffed $$ everywhere..
so i realised i still have $5 in my hp pouch..
so i was saved... =)

e final blur was also mon..
when i juz scalded my right hand...
ya.. all my fingers...
while i was trying to prepare my ovaltine drink..
cos e dinner was v nan chi...
e boiling hot water juz spill all over my hand.. =(
so very very painful...
soaked my hand in dunnoe how many cups of cold water...
den finally realised i have e wan neng mopiko which can be applied for burns too!! =) so i applied tat n e pain subsided after tat...
leaving e slight swelling which has by now disappeared..
so my poor hand is now bac to normal.. =)

ya.. i am tat blur n clumsy~~ =X

My horrible week is finalli ending soon…
Yea~~!!

Yest went out w cot for dinner..
At some Indian restaurant to hui wei e ying du feng qing?
Haha.. food wasn’t tat gd thou… choices were v limited also..
After tat was dessert!!! Woohoo…
Desserts were e highlite la… definitely yummy…
But q sad cos I was alrdy q full when we had e dessert.. so abit ying ying sai de gan jue…
Den can’t really appreciate it… but I could sense e choco overload..
Muahaha.. I wan to go there again nxt time!!!
Eat e one tat Edwin had.. *yummilious!*

To be honest…
I was quite surpised yesterday when I learnt abt some stuff…
Even thou I pretended to be normal like I expected it..
Haha.. =X

It is really quite tu ran…
But I guess love is not something we can explain using logic…
It comes when u least expect it…
The most difficult part maybe learning to accept it ba…
But well.. wat matters is u r happy n xing fu! =)

Well.. today was tiring day…
i fell aslp when I lie down on e bed for awhile juz now.. instantaneous…
n it was e unconscious type of nap..
oblivious to everything de lo.. din even hear my alarm…

went sdc…
came bac str to choir…
din even manage to do much work… =(
nxt wk will be time to slow down n start working academically ba..
catching up time!

白色情人节快乐！

今天我知道了。。
原来笨笨是可以聪明的。。。
自以为聪明时，也可以是笨笨的。。。

i can still rem how i got to know about this jie ri...
all happened 2 yrs ago...
haha.. ya.. cos i got choco on that day!
can still rem the exact moment n scene when i know abt this..
hahaha...so ben ben de.. =P
but i think it's a precious memory.. *smilez*

well.. tink some ppl still dunnoe wat this festival is all abt.. =P
go find out! haha.. =)

yup...
so.. happy white v day everybody!
*muacks!*

ps...
y did someone wan to scold someone leh...
really got nothing to do w me?
if not y e someone dun wan to tell me y the other somone wan to scold him?
i'm all messed up~
watever.. since someone dun wan to tell me why..
i guess i can never find out why...
*dun care.. lalala!!
=)

生病了。。。

Yup.. I am sick again!
Fever lo… =(
Luckily it’s a mild one…
In recovery stage 90% alrdy I tink…
But I tink e sore throat part is just beginning.. =(

Actually I tink quite “sway”…
Cos this week is my busy wk..
N I have to get sick on in e middle of this wk…
On my 1 and only free day… so I can’t play happily.. =X

But overall I guess I am xing fu de la…
Cos got ppl offering to buy food for me here n there…
Thx loads!!! *muacks!* =)

Just now felt abit guilty…
Cos zy was asking ppl to join float…
I din sign up la..
Cos I dun tink I can commit to 2 whole months of hard work…
N there’ll be no one I noe to pei me… =S
Den I’ll be so sian… yalo…
I guess if possible… I’ll try to come bac to help ba…

其实我觉得我有很多东西要写。。
但就是下不了笔。。
或许。。我是不敢写下来吧。。
但是这是我的blog。。 我不需要去顾虑那么多吧？

但是我就是顾虑很多。。
所以打了一推的字。。
但却publish 不了。。
或许我的顾虑是多余的。。
因为毕竟
到头来。。好像只是自己笨笨的。。

Lalala~

i tink recently i'm getting more irritable, demanding and it's v bad...
i need to revert back to my old cheerful self! 改变自己！
*smilez!*
我要自由自在的！
i wan zero worries.. zero stress.. zero confusion...
juz like the stylo new zero sugar coke! =P
lalala~

Slowness~

haha.. i am such a ben ben n slow person~
i guess the facebook quiz i took sometime ago is quite accurate after all.. =P
cos tonite i discovered something after toking to someone whom i haven toked to in a long time...
haha... gong xi ni attached le!!! =)
not onli him.. sam also attached le!!
wahaha.. everyone also getting attached...
wo jiu gu du zhong lao ba! =P

asked a difficult qn to ppl juz now..
i juz got vague ans..
haha.. but i expected it.. cos i also would give such ans.. =P
thx for entertaining me.. hehe..

sorry for this short, random, messy post.. =P
btw.. happy Bday to fei koon n kk who r born on 8 mar! =)
happy bday to dennis born on 9 mar! =)

Mayday...

i happen to see these few videos of their concert...
super touching n sweet!!!
*sweet dao~~* (^ ^)

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Multiple Pix

these are all e pix from mid sem until this wk...

Dark and Gloomy day

2 days of tests r finally over…
Mostly ti-kaming…
So I dun carry much hope for them…

Arggh~~
today = No mood…
=X

Black dots everywhere~

today is e day...
nvm 2008...
60 stories at republic plaza...
it took ard 20min?? (not sure.. too tired to check time =P)

yes.. it's tiring de lo...
intensively tired for 20min..
cmi... haha.. i tink i'm so lousy la...
i started to get dizzy at ard 15th floor..
tink cos we keep turning n turing.. e amt of black dots were getting more n more.. (guess i shld have slpt earlier yesterday nite...)
haha.. tot i was going to faintz.. =P
but lucky din.. cos i stopped to rest...
in e end.. slowly slowly climb...
den managed to climb up to level 60... XP

n cch was zai! haha.. she also climb q fast lo.. =P
li hai!! n e other gals also zai! fit!
i got cheated la.. who say they not fit...
or maybe it's cos i am too unfit.. hehe.. =P

actualli q paiseh also la..
cos i tink i tuo lei gor lo...
he realli juz pei me all e way.. haha...
even thou i asked him to go 1st.. he refused..
he shld have run up all e way la..
*cos he is e fittest rite~* hehez.. failed to let him show off his shi li~ =P
dun have to 陪我这个身体虚弱的人... *paiseh*
but realli..
THANK U!!!!! =)
for e support..
for e push..
for e company along e way...
for e choco to help me jiayou for mugging..
for vogaris pte ltd...
u realli v nice~ e best-est! haha..
*gan dong-ed* =)
谢谢你！

yup... n to update on e other stuff...
me n hx bot cch bday present alrdy!!
yes.. we r efficient de!!
haha.. it was tough buying her e present thou...
dunnoe killed how many brain cells in e process.. =P
hope she will find it useful!

tonite.. tml nite...
i will be busily mugging for 2 tests...
hope it's not too tough a test...
chiong arh!!!!

Happy Leap Day!!

There is a tradition that women may make a proposal of marriage to men only in leap years, further restricted in some cases to only February 29. Another component of this tradition was that if the man rejects the proposal, he should soften the blow by providing a kiss, one pound currency, and a pair of gloves (some later sources say a silk gown).
- wiki~

St. Bridget's Complaint
It is believed this tradition was started in 5th century Ireland when St. Bridget complained to St. Patrick about women having to wait for so long for a man to propose. According to legend, St. Patrick said the yearning females could propose on this one day in February during the leap year.
- about.com~

This was what i learnt from watching the movie leap years today.
Saw the sneak at a ulu movie theatre today w gor after mugging a full day at the lib... =)
There were only 6 ppl in total watching the show..
haha.. so i can juz qiao jiao and everything n no one cares.. =P

anywayz.. abt the movie.. i tink it's sort of like a typical romance movie...
but i guess i like e sequencing of the show...
e way they added quotes in betwn..
rather tot provoking...
for eg. coincidences are god's way of remaining annoymous ~ Albert Einstein
n the show is not draggy... althou rather predictable... =P
n ya.. all e gals in e show were mei nvs..
haha... gor kept saying e daughter v pretty over n over again...
den apologised to me n go on to say: "ta zhen de hen piao liang!"
*faintz* haha.. tink he cannot help it.. haha... =P

so tml all e gals can actually ask guys out...
n e guys can't refuse!
unless they pay a fine.. haha..
i tink it's a cute tradition... =)
but sadly i dun tink any SG guys will noe abt this tradition unless they go watch the movie..
n by the time they watch e movie.. it'll be too late to ask alrdy...
have to wait for another 4 yrs... haha...
so sad... haha.. =P
anywayz... i got no guys to ask out~ even sadder... muahaha!

but as said in e show..
we shldn't get tog w anyone juz becos we're afraid of being alone...
we have to be brave!!
haha.. wah.. learn so much from e show...
not bad arh... zhi hui piao jia!! =D

finally...
happy leap day!!
enjoy it cos it comes once every 4 yrs... =)

entry no. 261

i haven been updating properly..
juz been rather random lately..
=P a quick update den...

sunday:
watched kungfu dunk w bert n sh...
e storyline realli was abit too rushed..
so i find tat it's not tat nice a show lo...
den we has ichican boshi for dinner..
which was super filling! n also super nice wor~!
somewhere during e middle of all e eating..
bert pen1 fan4... haha.. cos of something tat sh said n he tot was funnie..
muahaha... tsk tsk.. realli ni image alrdy lo... =P

monday:
muggerish day w gor at wl nlb..
mugged from 10am to 8pm..
good leh... but of cos there were breaks in betwn...
rather productive i would say...
but i guess i'm abit slow w my reading... so i'm still behind time...
it was gd mugging w him cos at e end of e mugging...
he treated me to waffles w icecream!!
haha.. but it was free de also la...
some voucher tat he has tat entitles him to a free waffle w icecream...
so he generously shared it w me... =) n i got to choose e flavour!
thanx!!!! it was yummy!!

den tat guy finally contacted me to ask me for e book he wanted...
so ya.. met him straight after gor left...
he accompanied me home to let me put down all my stuff n take e book for him too...
i wanted to be fierce to him.. to scold him or something...
but i couldn't la.. there r ppl tat i juz cannot be fierce to ba... haha..
so juz toked n smile n smile.. but i guess i wasn't being my usual self...
so he detected it n asked me y... told him e whole lot of stuff...
stupidly i felt e tears in my eyes... told myself not to cry..
but well... this type of frenship things always make me emo...
esp when he's one fren i realli treasure...
so in order for us to tok things out abit longer...
i sent him home from my hse... n den he sent me bac to my hse again... haha.. abit wu liao.. but ya.. we used to do this type of things in e past too...
like too free like tat rite... dunnoe y we din sit down to tok properly...

anywayz... he's realli gd at cheering ppl up...
dunnoe out of no where juz gave me choco after choco... realli funnie la..
u see.. how to be angry at him~
so i complained to him...
feeling like a spoilt brat...
n he explained his busy busy schedule to me...
ya.. i noe la.. u're always busy...
but i dun expect much also rite... =S
anyway he doesn't know abt this blog so i'm juz rambling to myself...
always noe tat u're an ambitous person...
always working hard.. striving to be e best...
taking on sooo much responsibility...
i noe it's wat u wan.. i noe tat u wan to achieve alot of things...
tat's y i refrain from disturbing u alot...
refrain from asking u out.. etc etc...
dun even dare to disturb u on msn...
but replying a msg dun take much time rite...
n pls.. nxt time if u realli juz calling to ask for my help..
pls dun pretend tat no la.. u juz wan to ask how i'm doing etc..
cos it gives me false hope k... will onli make me disappointed...

after toking for ard an hr...
i guess there was no solution to e prob...
wat i ended up telling him was...
actualli after telling u all this.. i noe nothing will change much de...
cos u r like tat de... since JC time u were alrdy like tat... so ya.. i dun expect u to change... i juz needed to tok to u abt it.. let out some steam... complains will come ur way once in a while... so dun mind k...
n his reply was.. ya.. tat's y i dun make any promises to u...
*he used to make those promises n break them.. ya.. so i guess we've both gotten smarter...

n tat was it..
sorry if i've bore u ppl w e weird story...
even thou it wasn't solved...
but i guess i was happy at e end of e day...
not sure y also.. maybe it's becos being able to tok to him like tat makes me feel juz like old times...
thx for giving me tat hr to tok to u ba.. even thou i guess u had something else to do...

tue:
slacker day...
nua-ed n watched tv...
studying was minimal...
haha...
tml shall work harder!

Day dreaming~

I'm in e lib now...
supposed to be doing work...
but i suppose i got tired of reading all the fuzzy wozzy lines in the txtbk~
eyes were almost closing... when this particular song played in my mp3 player...



this peaceful yet sad song reminded me of how great z chen is as a singer...
love his voice!! =)
he once came to sch n had a mini concert at one of e halls...
i rem queueing up for e tix n going for it...
really a fantastic concert... his voice was excellent (cd quality) n he was so ke ai! haha.. =)
how i wish he will start singing again soon~

*okies.. now it's back to e lines n lines of fuzzy wozzy words... =(

No. 1 shuai ge!



my idol from last time..
tall...
super shuai...
sings super nice...
tsk tsk... perfect leh...
haha...

Free day~

yesterday nite i finally got to noe who my angel is...
haha.. e coordinator of e game was my angel~
it was rather awkward when he handed me e choco..
cos it was so sudden...
i din noe wat to say to him!
haha... he also din noe wat to say.. so.. it was.. super awkward... =P

tonite well...
din bazaar duty from 6 to 12am...
juz to earn pts... haha...
all e pharm ppl in the same slot... desparate for pts alrdy.. =P
din do any work except for e project done tog w yl...
after tat it was hard to conc on my notes...
kept losing focus n wasn't in e mood also..

ylp kept toking...
haha.. e whole nite... she realli v determined to tok...
toked loads of rubbish... like xin xiang shi cheng...n her lousy example... haha.. xiao si le... yuan lai shi kong bu de...
tat's y wan shi ru yi is betta!

somehow we also toked abt nan rens...
yl was condemning nan rens n we were trying to tell her there r still gd guys ard.. haha... noe tat some guys r juz so ben ben n realli cmi.. but there still nice ones ard... those tat dun cheat ur feelings...dun change overnite...n r not stubborn as a mule...

later i dunnoe how it came to be them saying tat he actualli wasn't a hao ren...
but he realli is a hao ren!! i strongly believe tat he is... haha..
it's juz me being ben ben n stupid n maybe misled myself...
so yalo... it's juz no yuan fen...
abit of yi han thinking bac...
some things i could have done more...
some things i could have done less...
and all e wat ifs...
but now it's all over... n i guess it wasn't meant to be..
he's happy n xing fu now n i'm also happy on my own.. haha...
sounds like a pathetic attempt to an wei myself...
oh wellz... =P

den it came to toking abt e sad things...
i was ben ben as usual...
tink too much until so emo la...
haha.. diu lian si le...
but ya... i also dunnoe wat to do..
tok to him abt it n ask y like tat?
but he wont change one lo.. i seriously think so...
n he's so busy... i dunnoe if i'll be bothering him notz...
i dun wan to seem like a kid who's seeking attention all e time...
but i dun wan this frenship to become something like he will onli look for me when he needs my help...
maybe i shld try to ask him out more...?
but will his gf hate me for doing tat? haha... am i tinking too much here? wateva.... ... try hard to find a chance to tok to him 1st n c how...

finalli.. thx to hans for bringing us supper.. it was v nice of u!!!
xie xie!!!

had a nice nite toking...
even thou it was a totally unproductive nite...
but i guess it's nice to not have to do anything once in a while n juz tok n tok n tok abt anything n everything else...
q fun~ thx ylp.. for insisting on toking... haha..
n entertaining us... =)