Tuesday, July 01, 2008
我把他害得好累。
他不让我觉得内疚,
但我还是觉得很对不起。。。
When we were talking, I could sense his tiredness.
i know it was mainly because of me that caused him to feel so strained.
Caused him to miss dinner,
Travel all over e place,
Get caught in the rain,
Wait super long for e bus.
He said it was his own decision,
To keep to his promise.
But that wasn’t really a promise,
And it wasn’t a big deal so why did I have to sound so disappointed that he had to change his plans.
Sometimes I really dislike myself for being e lousy person I am.
I wanted to keep him company while he waited for his food.
But he was so tired that I wondered if I should just put down the phone and let him rest.
He said that it’s fine and he had nothing else to do anyway.
So we chatted.
After hanging up e phone,
I tot it was an awful nite.
Tried to be more cheery, tried to be more chatty.
But I tink I failed q miserably.
I just hope that tml and also in the coming days he wont be that tired.
Cos I wont be causing him to change his plans. *hopefully*
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Sat met up w 03s23 ppl…
Has been a super long time since we last met…
Had shokudo for lunch…
It was v much mache style except all the food were jap…
Had e omu rice!
V flavour-ful n v nice!!
After class gathering met up w him to walk walk shop shop… =)
Sun met up w pharm gals for k session at katong… =)
We were hysterically laughing at the olden mtvs…
Air-ing armpits la… weird poses la…
Muahaha…
Den at nite din manage to go for cot dinner cos was super tired…
Actually also wan to go visit shen bing de louti…
He got gastric flu… (actually wat is gastric flu ar…)
But he din wan me to ma fan… so oki lo..
I juz go home rest…
Monday juz go n visit him…
Bot him pork porridge from amk market…
Heez… but v sad…
cos his headaches get worse everytime he sees me.. =(
before I went home.. he bot me apple strudel!!
Super yummy!!!
Tuesday tot he recovered…
So we went for a movie…
Only 6 bucks before 6pm!!
Student price!! It’s gd being a student.. haha..
Watched zohan… tot e show was nonsensical…
But oki la… entertaining lo… =)
Den met his frens for abit of shopping for their shirts… den dinner at yishun…
His frens all v funnie one lo…
So I juz sit n listen to them tok tok…
Haha… paiseh tat I tend to be super quiet in a bigger group…
Esp since I dun really noe them… =P
All were my Anderson seniors…
In e end he also headache… =( cos he meet me…
Wed he rest at home lo…
Cos scared his condition gets worsened…
So again I visited him…
But this time w a purpose…
Cos I had to scan my timesheet… n his hse had a scanner! =)
Saved me a trip to the hospital to submit my timesheet.. hee..
In e end it turns out I had dinner w him n his sis at kfc..
Tsk tsk.. sick still wan to eat kfc…
Really dunnoe wat to say…
But since his sis so on for kfc.. so we juz eat lo… haha..
Anywayz.. his sis is really nice too!
Frenly n chatty! Which is gd cos I’m too quiet… haha..
Today we went to JBP!!
Early morning we met n had mac breakfast… =)
Good thing he was feeling better alrdy… =)
It was a Sunny n hot day.. but gd for outing ba..
Haha.. like tourist like tat.. we juz walk thru every single attraction except 1 I tink…
The snow owls r sooo pretty!
Penguins v ke ai wor! yuan lai got black furry penguins de…
He likes e shoebill.. haha.. big greyish bird…
Ooh.. den we saw baby ducklings too (was it a duck??)…
So cute! But e person keep dropping it onto the floor.. so ke lian.. =X
N we keep trying to zi pai… haha…
But his technique q bad lo… muahaha… =P
Had a gd time w him!! =)
Thx for treating me to jbp!!!!! *muacks*
Super tiring after e whole thing…
Den his headaches came bac…
I tink it was q bad… plus e lei-ness…
So it was gd that he decided to go bac n rest… =)
When I got home.. I opened my mailbox…
N found e letter I wrote to myself when I was back in india!
*we were supposed to write a letter to ourselves n will get it 6months later when bx mails it to us*
Q surprised to c e letter cos I forgot all abt it!
Haha… yup.. it was a great yep experience…
N I was juz tinking e other time…
Tat maybe it was my gd karma tat I was able to find louti after all these while…
Haha… ppl shld go for more yep n accumulate more karma!!
*photos another time*
Q a bo liao post cos I abit xin bu zai yen… haha.. =P
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
2 more days before it all ends!!
muahaha!
happy la!!
holiday pls come to me!! =P
past few days had alot of tots...
so i shall random~
dunnoe if i'm really suited to be a farmer...
cos i really have a bad memory...
n there's soooo much to rem...
even in these short 6 wks...
i feel so incompetent...
dunnoe anything like tat...
not to mention the stress level, long working hrs etc...
w only 1 more year to go...
can i really take up this job?
n it's really q sad... wat the papers said is unfortunately true...
we r after all considered as professionals...
but considering e workload we have...
e pay given to farmers currently is definitely below expectations...
it's no wonder there r less n less farmers getting registered n staying on in the field...
depressing but true... =X
just hope someone somewhere will wake up their idea n improve e welfare of farmers ba.. (even thou it's v unlikely) *sigh*
*** ***
my neighbour juz bot 2 jack russels...
sooo adorable! they keep wagging their tails when i try to communicate w them.. (outside my neighbour's door of cos)
but they keep them in 2 separate cages all day long...
i wonder y... the puppies look so sad...
can tell that they really wan to come out n play...
*sigh* dun understand y they bother to keep dogs when they seem to jus ignore the doggies...
*** ***
i just finished harry potter book 7!
okioki.. i know i am slow.. but i was waiting patiently for the price of the book to drop.. it finally dropped.. so i saved 30 bucks.. haha..
(in actual fact i saved all 50 bucks cos someone bot for me..*smilez*)
it was nothing like children's fiction...
but it was exciting n an intense read...
ending wasn't wat i expected cos of all e rumours..
haha.. but ya.. i love harry potter series..
so now can only wait for the movies to come out lo... =)
*** ***
louti will be back soon!
tml's flight back! =) =) =)
*** ***
i wan to go buy alot of things!!
i wan to sing k!!
i wan to go birdpark w louti!!
i wan to wake up late!!
i wan to nua!!
haha.. all after the countdown... =)
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Have been busily doing homework from attachment…
Leaving me w little energy or mood to blog…
Keep dreading having to go to work…
I want my holidays!
Muz hang on for 7 more days!!!!!
=)
What I have done for e last few weeks (besides work n homework):
ktv with him + his frens
meet up with hx + cch
dinner with him + his frens (x2)
meet up w jh + peter
dinner w him (x at least 2-4 times every wk)
movie w him (x2)
dinner w him + his mom
yup.. tat’s all I’ve done..
not a v exciting life…
but I’m happy…=)
e other day jh sms-ed me…
I was wondering if she had sent to e wrong person after reading e 1st two sentences…
But after reading e full sms… I knew it was for me…
I was q touched after reading that msg… =)
Thanx for tat sms… but I tink my reply was kind of lame… =X haha..
I also wan to thank u!!!
Can’t really find e right words to say at the moment…
But hope our frenship will last till e v v end!! =)
Saw chiahong at my workplace e other day…
so long never c alrdy!!!
Cos he never comes to our class gathering…
*tsk tsk*
He’s still as thin as ever… haha..
Anyway…
It’s going to be 2 months tml!!
can't seem to be able to pen down my tots today...
hmmm... shall write more e next time i'm more qing xing!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
*notice the wolf in sheep's clothing in my hands... (han's newest toy which looks juz like him.. hee hee~)
me w my prezzie! n the rotat-ish card with a piece of the paper fallen off n me holding onto it.. haha... =P
it was a happy long wkend last wk!! =)
on tue it was warzone again...
this time was better cos we were more familiarised w the stuff n how to paste... how to write... etc etc.. so the ironlady as elaine calls her... doesn't come round so often... hee...
wed, thurs all met louti for dinner!
yummy dinner at amk s11 and at novena chicken rice respectively! =)
comforting after a tired day at work...
fri nite met him n his big bunch of frens for dinner at ps pasta mania...
hmmm... i remained quiet most of the time..
juz sit down n listen to them tok lo... cos i dunnoe them ma...
haha... but it's oki la.. since i was tired also...
they were nice n frenly to me... but thou i still felt abit strange...
mainly cos i'm not a v sociable person.. haha...
ppl say me dao n cold before de lo... =P
but i'm not k... i juz... dunnoe wat to say.. =X
so hope they dun tink like tat.. hee...
sat was a nua day for me...
even thou they (louti n his frens) jio me to go blading...
*i dunnoe how to blade..
i din go... cos juz wanted a full rest day at home lo...
juz to slack... =)
slpt n slpt n slpt.. so shiok...
haha..nua until i forgot all abt my plan to go jogging...
=P shall go nxt wk den...
cos passion run is coming! omg..
8 jun... ... haha.. die le lah~
Monday, May 19, 2008
On 17th…
Nua-ed at home n eat mee sua cooked by my mama…
Went out w lou ti later in e day…
Shopped at marina sq trying to look for my sis’s bday prezzie (cos her bday falls on 18th)…
Den I realized I noe wat to give to my sis after a short while…
So we juz walked abt aimlessly instead…
Looking at all e new new gadgets n testing him on his engineering knowledge/perspective…
He is q li hai on all those la.. haha…
After tat we got tired n decided to sit at e merlion area…
Throughout e day he juz refused to tell me where we r having dinner…
Juz say tat we were going for cai fan at republic plaza (where we climbed the 60 storeys)…
So I was still kept in the dark abt where we were going to eat…
As we were walking to the merlion…
We walked past fullerton… n started toking abt the chocolate buffet inside…
He innocently asked me:
if I wanted to eat inside later instead of the cai fan…
the price…
if I noe there’s any other places tat has e choco buffet…
In the end…
He brot me inside fullerton for the choco buffet…
Totally din expect it!
He brot the choco monster to the choco buffet… =)
Totally cheated me.. but in the nicest possible way~ tat I dun mind.. hee~
So we tried the dozen diff types of choco cakes… (some super nice.. some erm.. not my type..)
Fondue… (sour strawberries.. but super sweet pineapples!)
Hot choco drinks… (bitter n sweet at e same time!! oooo~)
Variety wasn’t a lot… but the choco were v yummy!
After awhile can get abit overdose…
so muz eat.. rest.. eat.. rest…
so…
I spent the first min n the last min of my bday w him… =)
I wan to say:
thx for being so sweet..
for planning all this..
for spending so much $$ (which u dun have to..)
for making me feel so happy!
On the 18th…
1st of all…
Happy bday to my dear sis who is now diving w my jiefu somewhere overseas…
So went out again today but w the pharm gals…
It was abit weird cos we met up separately to buy the various presents…
For eg.
Me, Christina n sh went to get wl’s prezzie…
Wl, adez, hl went to get my present…
The rest of us except adez went to get adez present…
Abit messy esp when it came to $$ collection… haha…
Not easy collecting $$ n writing cards in front of the bday person herself!
It was also a v funnie outing lo…
Cos e bimbo club is established once again… muahah!
Me, adez n yj accidentally wore pinkish stuff today…
N we kept walking n sitting tog, plus our (me n adez.. yj more calm on the outside..) gigglish nature, we got labeled as the bimbos club… haha~
Later when dilys joined us, even thou she wasn’t wearing pink n was trying super hard to act like she’s not one of us… muahah~ she still is lo! Cos she’s the most gigglish of us all!
Den sh n wl were crazily taking photos today.. all of a sudden..
I have no idea y..haha..
So ya.. everyone’s abit strange today…
but it was funnie…laughed until I really q tired…
thx gals for the card n the present!
The lovely earrings n necklace I will wear de!! =)
*muacks!*
Last but not least…
Cont to thanx all those who wished me happy bday n happy belated bday!! (msn, sms, facebk, call)
Thanks: peijun, bx, Jeremy, adez, joy, cch, hx (who specially called me from melboune!), Johnson, weiling, Samuel, ricky, wenjun, joel
Saturday, May 17, 2008
My first week at op is definitely tiring de…
Standing all day long…
Stressful packing…
Constant fear of the whoever coming in to ask “who packed this?”…
I tink she dun like us… dunnoe y also… we never offend her leh~
It’s really like a warzone…
Fortunately…
I have a gd pr*c*ptor
And I’m not alone, cos there’s 6 of us tog~
So we can complain to each other… =X
the pharmacists there r all nice ppl…
they r all v willing to let u tag along n learn stuff from them…
even thou they are forever sooo busy n stressed up…
but they r li hai de lo!
one look at the scripts they know wat is going on w the pt… whether there r drug interactions.. which I tink is damn zai~
Happy Bday to me!
Yup it’s my bday today!!!
I’m officially 22 yo~
Yesterday I received prezzies alrdy!
It was q a funnie scene while I was working…
Cos I was attached to retail yest afternoon…
Den while e pharmacist was toking to the customer…
Bx came down to op n he wanted to leave a small paper bag at e door of the retail room for me… which was along a very busy passage way…
At first I din even know it was for me…
so I blurly go out n asked him: “wat’s it for?”
N den he told me: “it’s ur bday tml mar.”
Me: ”orh~~ thx thx!!”
so i brot it to the pantry to keep..
Haha.. sooo blur!! Paiseh...
But it is a pleasant surprise n thx loads!!
Brightened up my working day~ =)
Den at nite I met lou ti for dinner~!
Dinner was pizzahut decided by me!
Cos he said he alrdy decided the dinner for 17th…
We were reminiscing abt our old days in Anderson…
Even thou we r generations apart…
But whoa~ his class is happening de!!
Kept me entertained throughout dinner…
Super funnie incidents… haha…
Stuff tat guai guai ppl like me can never imagine…
They were so notorious tat even ttp gave up on them…
They were the “legends” in sch staffroom… haha…
After dinner we went walk walk abit den juz settled down at a new playground near my hse n chatted all e way until 0000… =)
*he even set alarm*
Haha.. =P
I dunnoe out of nowhere…
He popped out a muffin cake from his tiny bag~
It was totally unexpected judging by the size of his bag…
Plus he gave me a handmade present too!!
Super sweet super nice I’m super happy!
Thanx n *muacks!*
Also thanks dozens to all who wished me happy bday so far (msn, sms, email, facebk):
Jingkai, hans, kk, dilys, kianwai, chongtak, shufang, Edwin, sh, mindy, Lincoln, jipson, serene, Alvin, zhiwei, shishir, lingchong, constance!!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
yesterday the last paper ended!!
finally!! haha..
relieved even thou the paper is the worsest of all~
it was bert's bday celebration yesterday...
so we went mof for dinner~
he was terribly late.. so had more than enuff time to deco n write his card..
aiz.. i deco e paper bag until super ugly... so paiseh..
den keep getting suan-ed by hans e whole nite...
post exam writing cmi~ =P
when he came.. we finally can eat!! cos we were starving!
had the delicious tan tan ramen.. v shiok! cos can add alot of chilli powder inside the soup.. haha... pj also like~
den it was dessert time! woohooo~!
super nice de mango ice w soft serve shared w pj n sh!
we realised the mango syrup is free flow! omg...
so juz kept adding like nobody's biz.. haha...
kept eyeing other ppl's mango ice after tat.. heehee...
*yummy!*
den it was packing time back in hall..
cos have to shift bac home on sat~
n i have a lot a lot of stuff lo~!!
shifted house today with the help of lou ti..
thank u!!!
for buying me lunch... for driving me home... for carrying my heavy boxes!!
thanks to his fren also.. haha..
my free labourers...
not forgetting my sis n jiefu too...
for coming downstairs to bring my stuff up..
supposed to have dinner w him n his frens...
but in e end cancelled...
gd also la.. cos i tink i will be so qi guai w his frens.. =P
cos dunno them mar.. even thou met some of them before...
so i had chips for dinner~
n also finished off the awfully choco cake tat he bot for me...
haha.. wat an unhealthy dinner... =P
rest day tml! going to nua all i can before starting work!
*sorry made u so tired...
appreciates everything u've done! muacks!*
Thursday, May 08, 2008
wah!
my son actually called me!
so unexpected lo...
haha.. full of nonsense as usual~
told him abt my stuff...
*actually i din tell him.. he say it out before i could say! omg.. li hai~*
n the 1st qn he asked was:
how tall is he?
muahaha.. qi guai de wen ti~
den he proceed on to say tat he's taller..
which is total bullshit~ =P
haha..
hoping to meet up w him soon~
even thou will be very hard since i'm going to start work soon..
n he.. forever so busy... haha..
haha.. funny phonecall~
*die alrdy!!
cannot finish mugging for this last paper!!!
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Monday, May 05, 2008
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Thursday, May 01, 2008
yup.. there's only 39 hrs left!
still need to minus off the time for slp and etc stuff...
*panics*
cos i'm still way behind schedule...
haha.. but i'm still here blogging... =X
i'll go work hard after this very random entry la... =)
what i want to write is...
thanks to lou ti for keeping me company the past few days!
i really had better progress with u there to stop me using lappie la~
n thanks dozens for the choco which i have sinfully finished!! =X
lou ti left w e last paper only~
ni ke yi de!!!
jiayou jiayou jiayou!!
finally...
i tink i'm really very suited to be blood type B.. haha!
oki.. i tink this is a v bo liao post...
paiseh wasted ur time reading it.. haha! =)
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
i guess my frens ard me will seldom hear me talk about my elder brother...
most of the time i will only talk about my elder sister...
i guess that's becos i am not close to him...
sometimes i can say i even dun like him...
cos he can be so inconsiderate...
doesn't switch off lights after he use them...
smokes n smokes n smokes such tat we have to endure the cigarette stench...
doesn't care to give my mom rides to places she needs to go to even thou he is just lazing ard at home...
and the list can go on and on...
but it wasn't like this when we were young...
when we were young kids...
he was my playmate...
and we were quite close...
we would play nintendo tog... even play soccer cos he pestered me to...
he will cheat me to go downstairs to buy ice cream from the uncle every afternoon.. and i was willing to go cos he will treat me ice cream...
i can't remember when we drifted apart...
was it when he went to his sec. sch?
when we stopped playing tog?
when he wasn't home when the ice cream uncle came?
when he started to smoke?
really can't rem le...
nowadays we dun talk much to each other...
maybe a line or none when i go home on weekends...
or when he needs help from me...
sad isn't it??
miraculously...
he msn-ed me just now for the 1st time...
i tot he wanted to ask me for some help again...
but he didn't... he just wished me good luck for my exams...
he told me to work hard... told me to jiayou...
i was suddenly overwhelmed by alot of feelings...
i was gan dong-ed even thou it was a simple wishing from him...
but it wasn't simple cos it was from him...
the first time...
how many times have i said something like this to him?
none... guilty to say this.. but true... none...
so i cried...
and cried until my tissue box is empty.. sorry to earth but ya.. i used alot of tissues... tap cant stop flowing...
when he was so emotionally distraught...
i din provide any emotional support to him...
all these years he didn't tok to me... to us...
was it becos he didn't know what to say anymore?
cos we always seem so pre-occupied with our own things...
i just shrug him off whenever he tried to talk abit of those nonsensical stuff with me...
i just saw his bad side...
did i even try to understand why? i didn't...
now i reflect on this...
i tink i am a bad sister...
he wont get to see this..
but i am sorry...
for being an awful younger sister...
i will try to improve...
even thou i know we wont be bac to as close as we were when we were young...
i will try to be a better sister ba...
even thou i'm not sure wat i can do...
just try ba... =)
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
chocolatey without being over~

Friday, April 18, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Today was the last lecture for pk...
and there were 2 guest lecturers toking abt their jobs today instead of just the regular lectures that we have...
I wasn't really paying any attention to them even thou it was said that this lecture would be tested in exam as well...*dunnoe real or fake* =P
anyway... the thing is...
i am starting to get worried for my future...
it looks really bleak lo...
cos i have no idea what i wan to do!
hmmm...
i can say i enjoyed my preceptorship last year...
cos i felt that i could apply what i learnt in class....
and the satisfaction i get from being able to help ppl feels good...
but becoming a retail pharmacist?
hmmm.. i have my reservations...
wat if they juz throw me to some ulu outlet tat nobody comes for the pharmacist? den i do nothing? i will be sooooo sian...
work environment wise also not my ideal type...
another practical consideration is the pay of cos...
i can't say anything abt working in a hospital yet cos have to wait until after this coming hols ba... after attachment...
i know i'm not interested in research...
cos i dun like reading journal research articles...
i dun like to look at the graphs and all the complicated data...
*super bad at those stuff*
which also rules out anything associated with pk.. like clinical trials etc...
sales is really not my cup of tea...
cos i cannot talk! haha..
i mean i'm not good at selling stuff to ppl...
lousy conversational skills...
industry to me is a very vague term...
i'm still not really sure about the various paths in pharm industry...
like wat exactly are they doing?
maybe can find out from yj they all after they complete their attachment...
something totally not related to pharm?
hmmm... it is a possibility but the odds are super low...
not making use of my degree... hmmm...
i dun really see that happening..
unless it's something like starting your own biz which i have no idea and skill for...
i tink it's really quite tough plus u need the capital to begin with...
so... yalo...
quite worried suddenly...
alrdy a year 3 student...
only 1 more year to graduation!
... ... ...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Haha.. adez reaction so funnie…
Yj also lo.. she shake hand w me to congratulate me.. haha…
They wanted photos… haha… which I din have!
Cos we din take any…=X
went out for dinner after his interview on tue…
As usual… he made me decide on e place to eat… =P
Initially we tot we will only be able to meet 1 month later de…
Cos both busy with exams lo… =S
But yeah! It was happy to meet up again~!!
During dinner I was thinking of wat yj, ade n me were toking abt during our break…
They were saying that one of their frens will hold hand with the bf while eating throughout e whole meal… which makes them both handicap…how to eat properly like tat… it’s so funnie imagining tat scene…haha…
Then, due to popular demand…
we decided to take photos using hp…
Muahaha.. but it was ugly~ =X
Nxt time muz take better ones!
He seemed to keep reminding me tat he will treat me badly in e future…
N kept toking abt his bad pts…
ohoh! N his gay partner… =X
Hmmm… haha… yalo…
我上了贼船了。。。
*tink I really wasted ur day away leh… =(
Hope it wont affect ur schedule much k…
Jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!
Nxt up: 25th~ =)
**after exams…
9th : bert bday + packing
10th: pharms gals bday + moving??
11th: Mom’s day + moving??
12th: start work
=X



