烟雾！！！

e haze is realli bad...
so scary de...
dun even dare to breath harder...

看不清楚远方。。。
空气中有难闻的味道。。。
是烟雾造成大家的承重。。
还是是测验与课业的压力呢？

要加油。。。=）
我要加油。。。
大家也要加油。。。
不能被打败！ 要开心！
哈哈。。。 可能我疯了吧。。。

不开心可以来找我！
我可以请你吃 oreos cookies... =D
不要想太多了吧。。。
要focus!!

*smiles!*

another weekend gone...

wah...
this weekend i never do any work!!
except for e thai hw n e stats tutorial..
die die die..
i'm so slack..
feel so guilty now..
den still wanna blog somemore..
hahahz.. i am a big time waster...
but somehow i tink tat blogging down wateva tat happened is something i muz do..cos i scared i will forget all these things tat happened..
juz wan to keep rem e bits n pieces of my life i guess..
realised tat some of my frens alrdy gradually reducing e frequency of blogging..
abit sad.. cos like tat means i got nothing to read! hahaz..=P

okioki..
on sat e artists department finally went for our treat!!
we went suki sushi buffet..
ate like a ton of sushi.. full until wanna explode..
tink wo you fei le.. XP
hahaz.. so sad.. but i was v man zu with all e food liaoz.. hahaz...
chi bao liao mi n lp jiu went to kbox..
muahahahz...
we supposedly were allowed to sing for onli 2 hrs...
but in e end e ppl there forgot bout us n we sang like for 3 to 4 hrs..
muahahahz.. until got ppl like wan to come into e room liaoz.. den we faster packed up n leave.. =P hahaz..

den i went to shop for jeremy de present alone cos lp went bac liaoz..
heez.. den like nothing to buy..
so i juz anyhow buy.. =P
dunnoe if he will like not..
aiz.. maybe not v practical..
but den.. i tink is q nice la.. hahaz..
n i bot bubble tea home to drink as dinner... cos realli e buffet was too filling le..
i watched wo cai wo cai wo cai cai cai.. den jiu 1 day gone...

den on sunday.. my sister n her frens asked mi to go kbox with them..
so i went again.. hahhaz...
den we went for klunch.. n sing sing..
after tat we had e uzumaki icecream!!
nice wor!! but abit ex la.. =P
den we walked to far east to shop shop..
supposed to be window shopping..
but in e end..
i bot shoes..n they bot clothes n bag..
hahaz.. spend $$ again.. =P
but i like my shoes.. they r v ke ai!! hehez..

den reach home jiu cleaned xiaoham's cage..
watch tv.. cos is da jie ju..
den jiu watch wu jian dao..
den cos hungry jiu go for supper..
den come bac hall..
now blogging..
wahhh.... another day gone without doing anything!!
i feel guilty.. how how how???
relac too much liaoz..
like many many things to do...
argghhh!!
i guess i juz have to work doubly hard this week ba..
hope i can do it!!
gambate neh!!

btw.. this weekend was sooo hazy..
feels like i'm in a meng jing like tat.. hahaz.. =P
hope e haze goes away soon!!

Friday the 13th

on my way to buying food today..
i saw 2 black cats..
not 1 but 2..
normally nus where got cats one..
am i going to get realli bad bad luck today??
hmm... =P

anyway.. yesterday was damn tiring..
lectures from 8am to 2pm.. den from 6pm to 8pm..
come bac straight away went for choir icn dry run..
den jiu go for photo comm de meeting..
lei ah...

hahaz.. got 1 funnie incident yesterday..
when me n lp went to co-op..
she started playing with e foreva frens sugar
n i was holding onto e blue bear..
so she started to use sugar to ask e blue bear:
"为什么你会长成蓝色的？"
e funnie thing was there was a pharm classmate behind her n she din noe..
so e pharm classmate turned her head n looked at us like tinking..they r so qi guai.. hahahz..
diu lian!!
i juz laugh n laugh n laugh..
din ans her qn on y e bear was blue..
muahahahz.. xiao si ren le..
laughed all e way bac on e bus.. =P

den yesterday me n gor gor also went to steal e xqrj t shirt from x room..
muahahaz.. haven pay yet..
e design abit.. ermm...
let's juz say i xian qi a bit la.. =P

den jiu chat chat chat..
make card.. make until dunnoe how to design liaoz..
jiu watch anime..
chat...
n den jiu sleep le..
another day gone.. xP

today leh..
today also got funnie thing..
hahaz.. during e dosage form design lect..
sitting beside adeline mar..
den e grps were presenting..
den she suddenly asked 1 qn..
i tink v funnie..hahaz..
she asked whether will anyone get overdosed from sticking too many of those patches.. that e presenter was toking bout..
muahahaz.. never hear before de lo.. =P
asked her to ask yijiang but she scared later everyone also laugh at her qn.. hahaz.. but actualli shld be q possible to have overdose de rite..
hahaz.. thou i cant imagine anyone sticking sooo many of e patches all over e body until overdose.. =P

den in e afternoon before we went for e pharm law lect..
we went pgp to buy food even thou like not much time left de..
hahaz.. we r so heck care.. =P
i bot mango juice!! yum yum.. hahaz..
lp bot choco waffle + nescafe..
den jiu went to take e bus lo..
realised we r not tat late cos still got ppl.. =P

saw e fren..
seated at some rows behind us..
when we were going to alight..
cm told him we were there..cos cm was juz in front of us..
heard him say he noes..
den lp jiu tell mi to alight by e front door instead of e bac door which was nearer..
dunnoe if she juz wan to alight at front door cos there was less ppl going by front door..
or if there were other reasons...

you jue de sad sad de liaoz..
觉得莫名其妙。。。
很无辜。。。
无辜的被卷入这一切。。。
虽然已经过了一段时间。。。
但是还是会难过。。。
甚至会生气。。。
想骂醒他。。。
却知道他是听不进去的。。。

Pharm MAF celebrations!

today was e last day of pharm stats lab n also dispensing pract..
went for e briefing in e morning..
tot can go bac v fast..
in e end drag until 11pm..
cos of all e late comers lo.. den had to wait n wait n wait..
sian diao..

den in e evening i went for pharm stats lab.. hahaz..
1st time i din fall aslp!!
yea.. so shen qi rite.. hahaz..
i even wrote some notes!! hehez..
den helped adeline sign.. hahaz.. anyhow sign..

den becos it was still early..
so we went into LT20 to watch goong using e computer n projector..
hahaz..so shiok.. watch big screen de.. hahaz..

when it was 6.. we went to S1 there for e pharm maf(mid-autumn festival) thingy lo..
by den we were alrdy v hungry.. hahaz..
agnes, edwin n me were tinking of when we can eat e food alrdy.. hahaz..
like v greedy like tat..
den they wanted us to play games 1st before eating..
hahaz.. so they played lo..

Game 1:
Form 3 groups of 3 contestants.
To see which group is able to peel 3 pomelos in the shortest amount of time.
The winner of the contest wins a bottle of centrum pills each.
there was e yr 1 grp.. yr2 grp n yr3 grp..
n the winner was yr2 grp!!
hahaz.. cos yuantai was violent enough.. hahahz..
so funnie.. e pomelos all rolling here n there.. den become distorted liaoz de lo..

Game 2:
Form 3 groups of 3 contestants.
To see which group is able to light up all e given lanterns n hang them on e string in e shortest period of time.
there was e yr2, yr3, yr4..
in e end e yr 3 won..
hahaz.. again they won a bottle of centrum each..
this game not as exciting.. hahaz..=P

den jiu start eating le!! hahaz
everyone da kai sha jie..
e queue was soo long..
hahaz..gd thing we stand at e correct place..hahaz..
den get to eat all e food..
got chao mian.. wu xiang.. bread pizza.. crab meat.. spring roll.. chicken wing..
mooncakes.. brownies.. cheesecakes.. lemonade!!
hahaz.. sounds v feng fu rite..=P
it's oki la.. not tat nice.. n not tat bad..
e brownie not v nice thou..
cheesecake was nicer!!
n den got 1 type of mooncake tat looked like e copper sulphate suppositories cos of e colour of e ping pi.. hahaz..
so funnie.. but they said it was nice.. but i din get to try.. hahaz..
i tried e one tat looked like chocolate mooncake..
but bei pian le..
in e end it was tou sha filling with coffee de pi..
hahaz..

den got ppl come late.. horhor.. cos overslp rite..
hehez..come de shi hou alrdy no more drink!! n no more plate!!
hahaz.. tsk tsk.. tot u will onli slp awhile during e afternoon..
hahaz.. jing ran slp so much.. =P
but nvm la.. it's gd to rest.. pu chong ti li!!

after eating all e things.. jiu q full le..
den jiu lei le.. wan to go home le..
hahahaz.. so i bot a can of lemon tea n drank it while walking home..
abit e kong bu.. cos e road was dark n all..
hehez.. but i managed to make it bac safely.. yea!
jiu like tat lo..
come bac n tok to ppl..
den feel so lazy to do any work =P
i am a lazy bum!!
muhahahaz..

hmmm..

yesterday got so traumatized by the lizard tat i forgot to mention some stuff..
hahaz.. actualli yesterday jeremy came..
hahaz.. he came to learn thai from mi!..
but actualli he alrdy v li hai tat type liaoz la..
some e words he noe i also dunnoe de lo..
hahaz.. but it's gd also.. cos like tat he can teach mi! =P

cos we both went down tog to da bao my dinner mar..
den i tink e ppl like peter they all saw us..
hahaz.. den he ba gua..
msn mi to ask who he is indirectly..
hahaz.. den somemore asked if we wearing e same tee..
actualli is same colour de polo tee onli la..
he blind de.. =P so ba gua!!

den after tat he left shortly..
n den e lizard incident happened.. =P

den today nothing much la..
juz lectures lo..
so sianz..
den i realised gotta start making card!
but no ling gan..
aiz.. ling gan ling gan kuai kuai lai!! =P

e weekend...

on saturday..
the stuff i did..

• cut hair!!
• slpt like a pig..
• read magazines..
• did abit of hw..
• watched tv..
• cleaned xiaoham's cage..

On sunday..

the stuff i did..

• bot cake for william!! (his 35th bday..)
• eat cake.. n lotsa stuff
• watched tv..
• did abit of hw..
• play with xiaoham..

the cake was v nice!!

full of choco fudge but it wasn't too sweet or anything.. it was gd!!

cake was supposedly bot for william de..but in e end tink mi n sis had most of it lo.. hahaz.. sinful sinful..

on monday...

realised tat exams is onli like 5 weeks away!! die lo.. howhow??

i like never learn anything leh.. aiz..

n after e dosage form pract.. me adeline n alvin went to dispensing lab to peep at our results.. hehez.. n i passed! muahahz.. no need for re-test le!! yea!!!

as usual.. adeline was abit siao siao during pract.. hahaz..v funnie lo..n alvin as usual was sian diao by us.. hehez.. i tink they r e reasons y i dun dread practicals tat much.. hahaz..always laugh alot de.. =) i am happy to be lab partners with them! hahaz..

n juz now got an acrobatic lizzie in my room..=:::( jumped from my room de light to my table!!! gd thing never land on my bed!! omg.. so scary!! i immediately go knock on jh's door to find jiu bin!! tou xie to my rescue!! hahaz.. eternally grateful!! omg.. i am tramautised.. never seen such a lizzard before.. kong bu!!!!!!!!!!!!! he finally caught e lizzie after sometime with a cup n a piece of paper.. thank goodness... phew...

中秋节！！！

today after lessons jiu went with sock to meet pj, bert n hans..
we bot kfc!!
cos i said i wanted to eat..
hahaz..
n we bot icecream!!
choco de wor.. ben & jerrys de wor..
hahahz..
so sinful rite..
but nvm la.. fei jiu fei lo..

den we played mahjong.. n i won 3 rounds out of 6 rounds i tink..
hahhaz.. den tat hans say i cheated.. =P
i never lo.. hahahz..

den we watched tv..
n eat e icecream.. =P
n enjoyed e aircon.. hahahz

today so hazy la..
n abit hot also.. no wind de...
n now i am so tired...
cos i had a long journey home..
took 74 from amk.. stopped at buona vista station n waited v v long for 200..
feel so proud of myself.. cos i noe how to get bac..
n i din get lost in this dark n hazy nite!!
hahaz..

den bathed finish johnson jiu come n knock on my door..
diaoz.. y he come?? i also dunnoe..
but i am so tired i zhao hu bu zhou..
paiseh ar.. but thx for e mooncake.. =)

icecream + choco nite!

hahaz..
tonite f blk had ice cream nite!!
hahaz.. so we had icecream wrapped with bread..
nice wor! hahaz.. long long time never eat like this le..

den after eating e icecream we gossiped bout our class de couples..
hahahz.. gossip is fun.. hehez..
but too bad la.. we dun noe alot of ppl..
so e gossip is limited.. heez

den jiu went for choco!!
hahaz.. yuan lai tonite jiu shi choco nite.. hehez..
went down to pgp.. den can shun bian give him e coke i bot from thailand..
den v qiao de.. he bot mi coke also! hahaz..
thx thx!! v nice..=)
den jiu eat choco n watched e himalayas de movie clip..
q funni.. n e place looks v nice wor..
as in e mountains n rivers.. all look so mei..
watch watch watch..
eat eat eat...
drink drink drink..
den realised tat usp is soooo rich!! no fair de.. =( hahaz.. =P
hahaz.. jiu like tat lo.. enjoyable!! =)
den come bac.. den another day jiu gone liao..so fast!!

hahaz.. it's friday!! zhong qiu jie!! mid-autumn festival!!
hahaz.. but not much feel leh..
maybe cos no longer celebrate liaoz..
hahaz.. still have e lantern n candles tat xiao liang bot for mi..
but dunnoe put where liaoz..
maybe in some dark corner of e cupboard.. =P
last time say wan to celebrate with mi de..
but until now still haven celebrate with mi yet..
aiz.. but now wan to celebrate also not celebrate with mi liao lo.. =P
hahaz.. celebrate with his gf-to-be ba.. hehez..

n i fa xian something!!
hor horr.. die liaoz la.. xP
参了。。参了。。diu lian si le..
how how how?
aiz.. but cant do anything also la..
jiu zhe yang ba.. hahaz.. suan le!!
pretend i dunnoe.. hahaz..
ignorance is bliss!!
大家!!!!
中秋节快乐！！

another week almost gone...

so fast is thursday liaoz..

on tuesday din do much lo..
as usual juz chatting with ppl..
ohoh.. den johnson came n gave mi ice cream to eat..
hahaz.. thx thx.. it was nice la.. =)
but nxt time dun need le!!! =P

den was studying for dispensing test..
but like nothing much to study..
so i went to slp le lo..

den yesterday got dispensing test..
den my suppositories not v nice.. got hole n white patches!
but nvm la.. hahaz..
den i went to clementi alone after e dispensing test..
hahaz.. v tu ran de decision.. so i din ask anyone along..
anyway i tink others also not free ba.. =P

went to watsons to look at some of e moisturisers..
went to clementi bookshop to look for some book tat wj wanted..
went to ntuc to buy biscuits, tea, choco, laundry bag, hangers..
went to trim eyebrows..
went to giordano n bot 2 tees cos they were on sale..
went to buy pao pao cha for ylp..

heez..it was q nice lo..
go out n buy stuff on my own..
can walk to anywhere i wan.. hahaz..
den was q lucky.. cos all e buses come v fast..

den at nite i was q qin lao!
i did my stats hw... while chatting with ppl of cos..
hahaz.. if not i tink i would fall aslp lo.. =P
n i managed to finish it.. muahahahz!

when do we eat choco??
hahaz.. still dunnoe wor..
c how lo...hope it will still be in gd shape by e time we eat it.. =)
looking forward to choco eating day! =P
fei si le!!

monday bluesssss...

errrr xin de lsm!!!!
how can like tat de... =(
before tat lsm i was still kaixin kaixin de..
was fa fenging with yingjia..
but when 12.15pm came....
*bad mood*
need of chocolate therapy...
not going to do anything tonite..
juz going to watch anime n eat chocolate!!
*ROAR*!!
i dun care!!!

Bangkok Trip!

thurs..
1st time i go to e budget terminal..
looked like a warehouse lo..
so ugly de.. aiz.. xian qi!! =P
anyway we board e plane n bot tidbits along..
hehez.. gd thing got tidbits.. cos we got hungry on e plane.. =P
reached in bout 2hrs time..
den arrived at e new thailand airport..
v huge.. but den.. abit e lousy la..
they took ages to get our luggage out..
n den had to wait super long for e cab.. waste lotsa lotsa time lo..
den we finally checked into e hotel room..
n went for dinner..
after tat we went to find tailor for haixing (sister's frend)..
n we went to e suan lum nite market to walk walk..
but din buy anything also.. cos it was ex!

Fri...
today is da feng shou!! muahahz..
we went to pratuunam..
den walk walk walk.. buy buy buy..alot alot wor..
den at one of e shopping complex we saw a small puppy!!
so ke ai de.. hahaz.. blur blur de puppy knocked into my leg while trying to chase my sister's fingers.. chao ke ai!! so sad we din take a photo with it..
hehez.. den after tat we went to siam centre n had lunch at e jap restaurant!
super delicious n cheap!! eat until stomach wanna burst liaoz..
so satisfying!! hehez..
den we walked mbk.. buy somemore stuff..
den went to e tailor again.. but seems tat haixing wasn't satisfied with them..=P
den we went bac hotel n we went for foot reflexology!!
muahahazz.. so shu fu esp since it's after a whole day of walking!! n cheap also!!
damn nice la! e guy who did e foot massage for me was skilled also..
hahaz..feel so pampered.. hahaz..

Sat..
today went to chatuuchak..
alot alot alot of stalls la.. but cannot finish walking de lo..
hahaz.. so we walked for like 3hrs..
bot some stuff.. den jiu go for lunch at e same place again!! e fuji jap restaurant..
muahahaz.. hao chi!! oishi!!! =P
walked at mbk again..
den went for dinner at chinatown..
had birdnest wor.. muahahz..
den we abit e diu lian.. hahaz.. even e waiter laugh.. but he try to hide la.. hahaz..
den went bac hotel after dinner.. n den we had foot massage again!!
hehez.. but this time de gal not as skilled.. den not as nice la.. oki onli lo..
den jiu go bac hotel n pack pack pack.. yin yin sai everything into e luggage.. muahahz..

sunday..
today did nothing la..
juz eat breakfast den jiu walk abit.. den go airport..
sit plane.. fly bac.. budget terminal again..
go home.. go hall..
study.. slp..

tat's e end of my mid sem break..
cant believe it's over.. but it is over.. aiz.. sianz ah...
sch starts again.. n i haven even catch up on e stuff..
it's tiring..
but i muz carry on.. jian chi xia qu!!!
at least i bot lotsa new yi fu.. muahahz..

how did i spend e 1st half of my midsem break?

on monday..
i went back to sch to do dispensing pract practice..
not too bad la.. did q afew preps..
den after tat had lunch..
n had to do stats project...
went to e computing building for e 1st time in my time in nus..
hahaz.. like so mountain tortoise.. =P
found afew papers.. but also dunnoe if it's suitable not..
den cos we were juz too slpy..
we decided to go bac.. hahaz..

went bac to hall n slpt..
after dinner i da sao chu!
i cleaned my fan..
mopped my floor..
wiped table..
washed my floor mat..
changed bedsheets..
make until my room is v clean!
felt a sense of satisfaction wor..
hahaz.. gan jing you shu fu de fang jian!! =)

Tuesday..
mugged lsm..
mugged n mugged...
but nothing seemed to be going in..
tink my brain got defects or wat ba..
so sianz.. aiz.. =(
so i started chit chatting to ppl online..
haha.. n studied v v slowly..
at least got some thing go in..
but dunnoe by now come out le ma..
dun like lsm.. =P
they seriously tink we can rem all those rxn n e enzymes n reactants n products meh..
if so.. i tink they r mad..
a bunch of mad lecturers...
argghhh.. now i c arrows i wan to puke...
reminds mi of all e complicated rxns..
i'm going crazy also.. xP

Wednesday..
woke up early today morning..
had breakfast den went to darkroom!
all my myself.. so independent rite..
hahaz.. =P
mixed e solutions by myself..
den tried to use e machine..
but realise tat somehow i cant find e image..
dunnoe y leh.. muz ask gor gor when he gets bac..

so i did some developing tat din require film..
but i tink not v successful also..
e contrast like not v ming xian..
dunnoe is i mix wrong or time wrong or e photo paper expire or e chemicals expire or i no skill..
hahaz..dunnoe la..
but i found q abit of stuff in e darkroom..
stuff tat i used before.. stuff tat i never c before..
n lotsa lotsa slide photos!
yuan lai last time de seniors got use slide film de..
li hai li hai.. hehez..
hmmm.. den jiu like tat lo..
came bac room n now going to do some more hw..
cos tml going to bangkok!!
den jiu no time to mug le..
okioki.. i shall stop le..
jiayou jiayou jiayou!! =)

其实写了这么多。。。
我也不知道做不做得到。。
因为我就是一个常常会依赖别人的人。。。
可能因为家里我是最小的吧。。
所以有了这个坏习惯。。
虽然姐姐有常常要我独立。。

我只能尽力。。
如果我变得软弱。。
可以去找你吧。。

也不知道这样的决定是不是对的。。
只能试一试吧。。
如果不对的话。。
在看着办吧。。。
现在也想不到什么其它的了。。

我要坚强起来！

saturday nite we went to e village at heeren for our float qing gong yan..
before tat we went to kbox!
sing sing sing..
v fast e time past le..

den ate alot at e village.. =)
e food was good!
loved e orange grenadine.. it's v nice!
n e "death by chocolate".. hahaz..
saw e fondue too.. tink maybe nxt time can go try tat..
it looked v tempting.. hahaz..
anything chocolatey tempts me la..

sat with ah kok, lp, gor gor, anthony n fushan nearby..
it was q enjoyable eating with them..
juz din had to tink to any other stuff la..
juz crap n eat..
eat n eat n eat..
till i wanna burst.. hahaz..
the list of food i had:

grilled chicken breast with brown sauce
wedges
1 cup of orange grenadine
1 slice of death by chocolate
1/2 mushroom soup
1/2 strawberry waffle with choco icecream..
n many many others tat i kopped from others..

fei si le!=P

den jiu went bac home by myself..
cos e others were going bac to hall..
like v xiao sa like tat.. walk alone..
hahaz.. i tink too much le la.. not xiao sa at all lo..

den sunday..
i juz slacked e day away re-watching jin san shun with sis..
n cooking instant noodles n egg tat sis keep kopping..
hahaz..she keep saying hen xiang hen xiang...
den she eat.. hahaz.. gd also la..
den i wont get sooo fat..

zai jia li jiu wont get e feeling tat u r being xian qi...
zhen de hen hao..
wonder how they can stand me.. hahaz..
amazing ppl!!
i like my jia! =)

den at nite wj bot cheesecake..
so he called zw n asked mi to ask jh..
so i asked lo..
den eat n eat n drank tea as well..
e cake was nice..
e tea was nice..

somehow.. e atmosphere was weird..
for me i tink.. i tink e others felt oki..
onli me ba.. again.. it's onli me.. =P
cos i was juz there..
juz existing there..
no contribution.. nothing..
but wat else can i say?
i dunnoe anything..
dui yu yi ge shen me dou bu zhi dao de ren..
shutting up mite be zui zheng que de xing wei ba..

fang xin de qu zuo zi ji de shi ba!
i'm oki...realli..

hao lei de yi tian..

Friday nite went out with yj, wl n joy to get present for hl..
sh was supposed to come..
but she had to finish up her lab stuff..
we took a bus to marina square..
n we v fast alrdy saw some nice tops tat can buy for hl le..
but we still walked 1 round 1st..
eventualli we came bac to e same shop..
n bot a black off shoulder top for her.. =)
it's nice!

den we went for dinner at e foodcourt which i went to for e 1st time..
den had e korean chicken ramen which was spicy..
quite nice la..
den after eating.. me n joy started playing with food..
which was so dumb.. hahaz..
tink we studied too much bout emulsions..
we competed to c who can make e biggest oil globules from her bowl of oily soup..
in e end i tink i won.. but yingjia wan to stop us from playing so she destroyed our oil globules..
hahaz.. dumb.. but fun...

den after tat we went walk walk abit n i bot famous amos de brownies..
it was kind of like an impulse la..
cos too tempting le? hahaz
3 for $6.20..

den went bac with yingjia..
took bus to harbour front.. den took 10 bac..
想到上一次。。
我第一次要从这个方向回KE时。。
我不会回。。 问了一个人。。。
当时和那个人还很好的。。。
现在却不同了。。

anyway.. i took 10 n alighted at e correct stop cos i rem wat he told me last time..
but as i stood up..
all my coins dropped onto e floor..
diu lian!!!
coins rolled all over n i had to pick up one by one..
got 1 coin even roll to e bus driver there n he called out to mi to ask mi go pick up... aiz.. so throw face!!! =P
den i walked bac..
dark dark de.. den at nite e roads all look different..
cha yi dian mi lu!!
good thing eventualli got bac to pgp n den ke..
was tinking who i can call to get help if i realli lost..
di yi ge xiang dao de jiu shi na ge ren..
dan shi bu ke yi ta gei ta ba..
di er ge xiang dao de..jiu shi e lonely old man on e hills..
hahaz..

got bac n was soo tired..
ah kok say i look like xing shi zou rou..
so scary meh.. =P

zhi hou they asked if wanted to go nuh..
i was tired so i said no..
but den after tat i tot..
shld i be more sociable?? less zi bi??
aiz.. in e end decided not to..
maybe cos physically n mentally tired..
hao lei ah..

maybe made ppl feel tat..
"aiya... y tat wp like tat one..
y she so zi bi n bu li ren de..
she is soooo qi guai lo..
qi guai de ren!!!!"
maybe la.. i dunnoe.. =P
but i realli hao lei ah...
ren ji guan xi hao lei ren ah...
lei dao wo dou bu xiang blog ta le..

thx for cheering me up..=)
thx for offering to buy mi supper..
hope u had fun..
ni cai shi hao ren..
wo zhi shi pu tong ren..ke neng shi qi guai de ren.. =P

suddenly wanted to clean my room..
so i cleaned all e shelves.. floor n bedsheets maybe can change on monday ba..
san gen ban ye clean my room..
gou qi guai ba.. =P

i had my brownie... it was v nice!
cheered mi up some too..
wanted to buy coke.. but in e end din go n buy..
maybe cos i was lazy? healthy? wan to save $$? hahaz..
dunnoe la..

finished watching jin san shun le..
it's a nice show..
funny n touching..
even thou i dun tink such things will happen in real life la..
but still it was entertaining.. =)

2am liao jiu went to bed..
tat's all le..

1 more day to mid-sem break!!

yesterday nite was bad..
v lousy...
maybe i fa xie-ed many many of e stuff tat was kept in me for a long time ba..
felt so useless...
felt so sad...
got reminded of things i din wan to tink about..
din wan to tok about...
things tat i juz wanted to ignore...

fa xie shi fa xie le..
but still..i tink i wont do anything bout it..
hen mei you yong ba..

我就是这样的一个人。。。

is this a sufficient enough reason?
or issit juz an excuse...
issit i can't change
or i dunwan to change?
好烦。。

sometimes i tink i dun understand myself..
maybe other ppl understand me betta..
hahaz.. so stupid rite..

i dun wan frens to be worried about me..
不要成为人家的负担。。。

i must learn to kan kai more...
must!!

Thursday...

today was much betta..
but woke up with swollen eyes..
went for classes..
had e gan jue tat i muz be more kan kai.. =)

had thai classes again today..
=) like to go for thai lessons..
always will xi xi ha ha de.. heez
after tat we went to bazaar!
n i bot green tea ice cream.. meiji de wor..
hahaz.. it was not bad.. but lp xian qi!! =P
n i bot 2 pairs of earrings..
v ke ai de.. i like! hahaz..
but like v fast de den i spent $7 le..
maybe this is retail therapy ba.. compensate for last nite de unhappiness.. =P
ohoh.. n we had our usual dose of milooo..hahaz..

den came bac n chatted with e lao lao peng yous..
hahaz.. like to chat with ur wor..
will always make mi more kai xin..=)

den went for nite de thai class..
got quiz!! but onli 10 min la..
so it was oki i tink..
den after tat we watched a thai movie!
hahaz.. tink e title is called my girl..
oki la.. not too bad.. some parts q funnie..
but e story was v simple de lo..
was about children n friendship.. =)
at least we din have to draw e characters today..
can relac relac de watch movie.. =P

den came bac n went for photo comm..
n did lab report..
n toked to khun laiping..
den now i am bloggin!
not bad de day la..
tian tian kan kai..
jiu neng tian tian kai xin?

不管这么多。。
只要开心就好！！
=)

无聊又爱浪费时间的我。。。

i skipped lesson le..
skipped e useless stats lab..
go also juz slp onli..

hmmm..
回来的时候
开始胡思乱想
想到低是一个人好。。
是两个人好。。。
还是一群人好。。。

一群人的时候
有些时候也会感到很“一个人”。。。
没有真正能谈得来的人的话。。。
有心事也说不出口。。。

两个人的时候
会怕自己太依赖对方。。太黏人。。。
也会怕。。不知道自己有没有信错人。。

一个人的时候。。
最怕孤独。。寂寞。。
有喜悦也没人能一起分享。。
有悲伤也没人能一起分担。。

做人真的有这么难吗。。。
一堆的矛盾。。
好辛苦。。

最近的我。。
好像会是一个人的时候比较多。。
那我会寂寞吗？
有时候吧。。。
但一个人的时候
可以静静的。。想怎样就怎样。。
其实也蛮不错的。。

然后我又想了一下。。
现在有人在不爽我吗？
现在有人讨厌我吗？
现在有人在恨我吗？

想了觉得有点恐怖。。。
因为有些人是不会把这些感觉告诉你的。。
他们也许还会跟你假装成很不错似的。。。
所以你都不会懂。。

其实我也不想理。。
因为要理这些事的话会很累。。
我知道我的脾气有时不是很好。。
说了话得罪了人。。
有时也不知道。。
一些话以为人家不介意。。
可是可能他们其实听了是很在意的。。。

我怎么会知道那些话能说那些不能说？
猜测人家的想法是会累的。。
而且人的想法天天都在变。。
当我停止猜测的时候。。
就可能是得罪人的时候了。。

就是想了这些。。
hahaz..无聊吧。。 =P
it's nice to have this blog..
can juz dump all e nonsense in my head here..
happiness unhappiness weird stuff..
all in here!!!!

title-less...

today i was v blur..
n careless... cos i left my pencilbox somewhere...
hopefully is e lab.. den tml i can go lab n claim it bac!
pencilbox... ni yao deng wo!

n i ate alot today..
dunnoe y i'm like so pig lo...
eat choco.. milo.. potato salad.. dinner.. sweets...
actualli juz now wanted to eat somemore thing de..
but luckily i drag n drag until so late le..
so decided not to eat le..
hahaz.. eat tml mornin ba! =)

today de weather is v de good for slping..
hahaz.. i slpt thru e lsm lect..
dunnoe is cos e lecturer too boring or issit e weather or issit my prob..
hahaz.. guess it's juz me ba.. =P

ohoh.. n today i woke up late for lecture!
1st time this sem lo..
woke up at 7.50am..
den i juz washed up den jiu run down to catch bus le..
gd thing not v late.. n i'm not e onli one on e bus..
hahaz.. bx also woke up late ba i guess.. hahaz..
n he gave mi biscuits for breakfast! cos i skipped breakfast mar..
yea~! thx! heez..

n today during dosage form lab me n adeline juz like feng nv ren..
keep laughing n laughing at dunnoe wat also..
n alvin juz gave us tat zhao pai look of his.. hahaz.. so funnie lo..
hahaz.. maybe cos laughed too much.. tat's y forgot to bring bac pencilbox..
aiz.. =P

tink today was a betta day than yesterday! =)
hope tat everyday is also juz as good if not betta..

喜欢。。。
谢谢。。。

Juz another day..

today is an ok day ba..
nothing much happened..
watch dvd..
do abit of homework
cleaned xiaoham de cage..
aiz...

actualli is an oki day de..
shldn't be sad or wat de..
but y am i feeling down??
aiz.. i dunnoe y also..
tink it's lsm de fault..
every week is also lsm de fault...

e stupid lsm notes r sooooo brief..
juz draw afew lines write dozens of unknown chemical names..
n den they expect us to rem everything..
it's rubbish lo..
how to rem??
it doesn't make any sense to me..

aiz.. but maybe it's my fault.. i din go n read up e textbook...
aiz.. maybe i shld go n read.. when i have e time to sit down nicely to read ba i guess...
maybe it's cos i'm too slack..
feeling e heavy workload...
no longer like last time..
no longer e hols..
=(

realli miss e past..
以前的我可能比现在开心吧。。
想起以前我会笑。。
不开心的时候。。。
至少有那些可怜的人听我诉苦。。
现在也有这样的人。。
但是我不好意思去一直吵他。。
以前的那些人。。
现在也太遥远了。。
想找也不容易吧。。。

yesterday received jeremy de phonecall..
hao kai xin.. =）
even thou i was q tired..
but we still chatted for awhile..
toked bout his visions n future plans n stuff..
n he is still as sensitive n accurate as he was last time..
hahaz.. it was nice toking to him..
can kind of tell he had some problems too..
but tink he din wan to tok much bout it.. so i din ask..
yup.. he was rite.. it was refreshing toking to him.. =)
thx for e call.. hope to meet up realli realli realli soon k..

y was i tired yesterday?
cos went for johnson de comms ball..
it was not bad i guess..
i wore e same dress as e last time i went to han's de comms ball..
but this time.. i had to do e makeup by myself..
tink i did oki.. not too bad ba..
e whole event ended early..
so we went bac early since there was not much photo taking going on..
n he gave mi a gift to cheer me up.. cos he noe i wasn't in a great mood..
=) it was an eeyore.. thx thx! it's v nice..i like eeyore!

before tat in e morning i was working...
e work was boring but simple..
n earned myself some money...
so i was satisfied..

friday was rush here rush there..
everything in a blur..
that's all le ba..

不好的一天。。。

aiz...
today is a bad day la..
except for e project part which was carried out smoothly..
and also e 8am lecture which i did not slp at all..
cos i drank nescafe!! =)

den e others is normal normal..
but after i got home is not gd...=(
aiz..
i happily switched on my new laptop..
which i tot can now connect to my house de wireless connection..
but turns out..
i was wrong..
super irritated with e stupid thing..
cos i tried again n again..
but still cant..
maybe e router n my laptop de wireless not compatible or wat or maybe i still need to d/l something else to make it work..
arrghhh...
even william also dunnoe...
sianz!! he asked mi to go ask e ppl at nus..
=(
msn put help also nobody care.. aiz..
wo shi mei ren li de..

den cos i had to borrow q alot of clothes from sis for tml de work n e commissioning ball..
so she found me ma fan..
aiz.. got xian qi..
if i had e clothes i also wont need to borrow le rite..
maybe it's juz time for me to start buying some of those formal clothes..
sianz.. =(
so sad la.. alrdy irritated with e wireless thingy liaoz den still kanna xian qi..
aizzzzzzzzz....

e saddest part of today was maybe when i saw ...
看到却要假装看不到。。。
他也明明就看到了。。。
但他视而不见。。。
转开视线的那瞬间。。。
突然很想哭。。。
忍住了不哭。。。
但心却很不舒服。。。
以为自己放下了。。。
原来还没有。。。
你真的放下了吗？？