juz tots..

e past week i cant rem much..
n realli nothing exciting happen ba..
juz lectures, lab, lectures, lab..
realli nothing much de lo..

but certain things happen n made me start to have certain tots ba..
hmmm.. realli dunnoe how to start..
it's like there r lotsa things stuck inside..
v difficult to get them all out..

starting to feel more n more like a huai ren..
wo shi huai ren ma??
is my problem rite..
other ppl dun seem to have e difficulty..
hen xiang hen xiang zi bi...
bu xiang nong dao bie ren bu kai xin de..
shi zi ji de ge xing you wen ti ba..
maybe i'm a private person...
alot of times wan e time alone to tink thru things on my own...
alot of times wan e time alone to do my own stuff...
but i guess alot of times... it's not v possible..
so i get frustrated...
n say or do things tat make other ppl unhappi...
after tat i will feel v bad...
like y cant i be more accomodating...
y cant i juz be more da fang...
y cant i be more sociable...
feel like a bad person...

in e past i would have been more onz bout going for those fun fun de activities with many ppl de...
but now.. i'm more anti-social..
maybe cos wo lao le... hahaz..
juz feel tat wo mei shen me hua jiang..
ye pa zi ji shuo cuo hua..
later make ppl sad..
make ppl tink i'm fierce..
etc etc...
so i'm not realli suitable for these type of stuff ba...aiz...

maybe these r all excuses...
maybe i'm juz beginning to get tired of hall life...
maybe i'm juz tired of e complicated ren ji guan xi...
maybe maybe maybe... wo ye bu zhi dao...

despite these...
am still glad tat there r ppl who appear at e rite times... =)
to him..
thx for helping to fix up my computer even thou it din work.. cos it's not e window's prob..
thx for being there to hear my complains n my bu kai xins..
thx for e meiji choco (i realised i haven thank u for tat yet.. =P)..
thx for being a fren n not xian qi-ing me.. =)
n to him
sorry for making u blur.. cos i always never say out e complete situation to ya..
thx for being concerned..
thx for e fei feis.. cheered me up.. (suan tian ku la.. i'll rem de.. heez..)
thx for e an weis.. =)

the past week realli has been emotionally more unstable..
juz hope tat e nxt week will be better ba.. =)
tat's all..