Re-booting in Process

Today seemed like a good day to blog again, just for myself, after about 5 million years of hibernating.

Just a short update:
I no longer hold a full time job.
I am getting married in exactly 2 months time.
I am flying to US for a year in less than 5 months.

The longer version of the update:
To be exact, I'm a locum aka part-timer. Its been like this for about 1.5yrs. Ever since my last entry. That is a long time and the reason? I'm scared and lazy and confused I suppose. Scared to step out of my comfort zone. Lazy to find out more and start experimenting with things. Confused about what I really love.
I am green with envy everytime I read about people who are able to earn a living doing the things they love. The advice they give are all similar: "Do not be afraid to chase your dreams." But what if I do not have a dream? That seems to be a major problem for me. I like tonnes of things. From reading to puzzling to colouring to all things nice, sweet and cute. But what do I love? Frankly, I have no idea. And the fact that I have a short attention span doesn't seem to help either.
So to cope with the monetary demands of daily living, I continue to hold a part-time job that demands minimal effort (just requires time), and yet gives me just enough financial freedom to carry on with my current lifestyle. Although this is a situation I hope to be freed of in the shortrun. I know I cannot be a locum forever, neither do I want to be one forever. Some people may think I'm lazy for not holding a full time job at my age. Honestly, I am lazy, but my major concern is that I do not want to be doing something I have no interest in. If I'm not interested, I find it extremely difficult to put in any real effort. Everything's going to be substandard and I'm going to hate it.
Well, that basically explains it, although there are times when I feel emo about the situation. I do try to be thankful for the little things once I know I'm getting too whiney. =P

Secondly, about getting married in 2 months time, I feel so unprepared. Haha. Video montage is just starting to take shape, dozens of things left to be purchased. 5 million confirmations yet to be confirmed. When should I be doing what? I really don't know. Arrangements arrangements arrangements. To be optimistic, I believe things will sort themselves out gradually. Although I do hope 2 months is sufficient for gradual sorting. =)

Finally, about going to US for a year, people keep asking me what am I going to be doing for a whole year? Usually I keep things light hearted and say: "Nothing. I'm going to slack and nua for a year. Woooohooo!" And sometimes, I get some replies along these lines: "You should find something to do. You should make full use of the time. You should blah blah blah... " I understand fully where they are coming from and appreciate their concern for me. But this ties in with the first update. What should I do? I do think about it you know. Although some people may make me out as a bimbo. Oh wellz, but nvm since I actually don't mind that. =P
Anyway, back to the point. I do not have anything concrete in mind because I want to try everything! Its hard to make people understand where I'm coming from sometimes. Maybe its just me. And so I give up explaining. I just nod and say ok. (Its kinda like dealing with annoying customers, but with more patience since I know you better.)

All in all, having graduated from school since 2009 and officially entering the working world, it seems I have grown to understand myself better. At least now I know what I hate, I know how my patience runs low rapidly when it comes to communication with strangers but yet I can stay in front of computers and puzzles for hours trying to troubleshoot or fix up stuff. I guess I'm really an introvert and a nerd. Thinking back, if I had known all these while I was choosing a course of study, I would probably have switched to a totally different direction where I didn't need to communicate with dozens of strangers on a daily basis and trying so damn hard to be nice to those people who may sometimes be rude and annoying. But I guess this is another of those "if onlys" that I cannot help but think about during my emo days.

This morning's event did not have such a wonderful turnout...


Now i'm just sleepy...

This chair is the most uncomfortable chair I've ever sat on...

The spotlights are blinding...

The smells are intolerable...

I'm glad I wasn't posted here 3 months ago...

I was inspired... Now the enthusiaism is dying...

what a short attention span... haha...

Hyper creative? nah... I'm just plain lazy...

in the end... i may be unemployed for awhile...

Peaceful Day

Originally supposed to meet up the gang today... but due to a change of plans, it got postponed to a date that I am unable to attend...
*sadded*

So I wanted to meet xiao liang, but he flew off yesterday nite to london for work...
*eh, who was it that said we shld meet up before he fly off de?*

Wanted to talk to LT, but he is in berlin with no internet...
*3 more weeks!* 

*sigh*

So, I...

Planned my list of items to pack for europe... *headache*
Cleaned the shoe cabinet...
Napped for an hr or so...
Watched HK drama...
Read the new book I bought the other day when I was sick... *quite an inspiring read!*

A nice peaceful day off with no responsibilities... =)

Happy Rabbit Year!
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!!

Finally CNY is here... but so fast the hols r almost over! =(((

Am loving the nua-ing ard and not having to do anything feeling... haha...

First and second day of cny is always standard: grandma's place and ah yi's place to bai nian...
Unfortunately this yr on the third day I have to start work... =(((

The only consolation is that we visited our jc cca tcher's hse!
We finally meet up after soooo many yrs!
Went to his hse in yew tee after work n becos he's a art teacher, his hse is tastefully done up...
Many many paintings n he even has his own art studio... how cool is that!
Love his bookshelf... but must be damn hard to clean... haha...
So we sat ard... playing wii... (while he gave his current jc students tarot card readings,
I never knew he was into tarot cards! but then again there's loadssss of things i dunnoe abt him! haha... not v shu... but he's the kind of tcher that u can be frens with. Althou his speed in replying sms is wellz... unpredictable... haha...) we only managed to chit chat abit after his students left... sam being the most chitty chatty one as usual... haha!
overall, it was nice to meet up again!!

Seeing these ppl again made me realise that there wasn't much of a highlight in my jc life except for
1) my cca (definitely not library.. =P) - NJPS, starting from yr 2 onwards when we were the exco... i love being the darkroom archival manager! 
2) the bus rides to n fro sch
3) sitting at the bench with all the ex-And.s.s. ppl...

omg.. sounds damn sad la... my class is not even listed... =X

haha... think it's cos my sec sch class is too perfect le... =P

so huai nian....

tsk tsk...

wo lao le....

Burlesque

Watched this the other day after i saw the preview on youtube...
Woots! Super nice! Christina Aguilera could really sing and she's so pretty in the movie!
i totally forgot she was christina while watching the show, she's like a totally different person...
This movie belongs to the musical/romance genre... some guys might find it boring, but i guess the sexy babes appearing on the screen will capture their attention... heehee...
definitely recommended!

Chalet

Had my 2nd chalet of the yr with a bunch of crazy and lazy ppl!
Realised that ppl our age can no long 'tong' n stay up late for chalets le... haha..
Light off at 1am everynite for us!! While other gin nas (our neighbours) continue to make noise until 5am...
What we did in the chalet: basically nua and stuff ourselves with too much food!
It was a gd break for us despite the beds being v uncomfortable... =S

**While we were enjoying ourselves at the chalet... my poor partner kenna a super nasty customer who called him a bas***d! She even made a huuuggeeee scene at our shop... WTH!!! er xin de nv ren!! qu si ba!!

End of a short short break

And then it is now back to work with no off days until CNY... and a good 4 full days in between...
pls let me get past this crazy crazy wk with minimal unpleasantness! =)

I want to be a billionaire so f***ing bad

*A new year*

I skipped blogging for about a year or so...
Have been too lazy to update...

A crazy 2010!
I'm glad it's over! =)

The year's barely started... and so far so gd!

We had our 4-6 chalet!
Whoa... like finally...
Really cool to be meeting up with all of them!
There's married couples lah, teachers lah, lawyers lah, police lah, accountants lah, doctor lah..
So amazing! =)
Everyone's changed so much! So glad we went for this... Even got to talk to andre! (Haha, in the past I would never have spoken to him...not shu at all loh...)
We played silly games, celebrated sam's bday, chitty chatted, like it was only yesterday that we graduated from anderson... So huai nian those old schooling days!

Met up with the gals too!
dinner at crystal jade was yum yum!!
Congrats to hx for getting a flat alrdy! Super fast de!!
And CCH, ask us out whenever u get bored! We r always available de! (maybe not always but we can arrange de! since we stay so near...)

All that's left to do is...
To start my exercising plan!
Damn it... i need some motivation!!!!
cannot duo luo anymore!

*counting down to cny...
2.5 more weeks to go!

Some people are just SOOOOO RUDE!!!

I hope he falls and break his leg!!!
GO to HELL!!!
ROAR!!!

Work and Dreams~

Just started work officially as a *palmist* for about 1 plus week. On the first day I felt really weird standing at the dispensary, esp when my partner, L, was ard, since he is definitely the more senior and number 1 in command. But soon, as the customer crowd starts to stream in, it seems like auto-pilot and I had no choice but to remain in the dispensary. =)

Found myself asking the same questions to different customers over n over again... sounding like a broken record... haha.. but no choice... standard qns...

the shop is definitely busy busy busy! had to eat lunch at 4+, dinner at 9+ when i'm doing full shift... and ordering and packing never never stops! I need a ka kia to pack me boxes of chlorphen everyday...

met some nasty customers.. sometimes i tink they r like sharks... super sharp sensors man... if u so much as ponder over their question for longer than 2-3sec, and they sense that teeny tiny bit of insecurity, u r dead... they will swallow u whole and walk all over ur head... *sigh*
i hope tat psychotic nut wears his skin off after applying the 8 tubes of hydrocortisone!!!!
soooo... being firm is the key man... firm firm firm! be fierce man!

of cos there r nice ones... those that don't mind waiting a little longer in the queue, don't mind tat i am rather blur sometimes... oh oh! an uncle bought me and my staff cakes! just becos i helped him to set his pedometer settings... (the pedometer was bought from W cos my shop did not have the stock) damn nice rite... =)

tink i'm having some communication breakdown w L thou... haha! cos sometimes he tells me stuff den i will mistake it for another thing... i am toooo blur!!! *sigh*
but he is sooo nice... he always tells me in a nice way.. "next time u can do this, it will help u to rem this n this" or "the tabs shld be packed like this, n the dates shld be changed, but it's ok, i have changed it alrdy, not a big prob"
Sometimes i feel like i'm letting him down! like i'm not up to standard n causing him more work instead of lightening his burden like tat... cos his previous partner was someone totally not blur! haha...

***

Today was the first day that all 7 of us were able to meet up after officially starting to work as a *palmist*...
Some were really happy w their locations, some were totally drained and getting depression... some were normal... guess i belong to e normal category... =)
spent most of the day voicing our grievances to each other at SB enjoying the free drink tat came w our tumblers... (SB rocks!)
after tat was shopping shopping shopping! cos no need go bac work after doing full yest...
retail therapy is e best! *satisfied*

***

was tinking abt my career path today...
wondering 5 yrs on... will i still be doing the same thing?
will my passion last tat long?
wat other stuff is there for me to explore?
am i adventurous enuff to explore?

used to dream of opening restaurants/cafes w my different grps of frens...
we even tot of e name... tot of wat to sell etc...
i also day dream alot abt opening my own shop...
sometimes it was a stationery shop...
sometimes it was a cafe...
sometimes it was a bookstore...
sometimes an icecream place...
maybe even a mix of a few...

kept tinking how much fun it would be to be my own boss...
of cos i know it will definitely be hard work...
there will be high risks...
n most impt of all... i need capital!
haha... with these and so much more other factors to consider... it is hard to make tat huge move... not tat i am intending to anytime soon!
but wellz... a gal can dream rite...
=)

A weird day...

today i was happy...

today i was sleepy...

today i was bored...

today i was energised...

today i was sad...

today i was lost...

today i was jaded...

...

the end of today...

Cannot bear to even eat with him!

Can't believe that there are ppl like him in my family!

Inconsiderate pig! (I think i may be insulting the pig here... pigs are wayyyyy cuter and smarter than him!)

Besides being inconsiderate, which is his usual self, he is also a 乡巴佬!!

does he think that in japan ppl only eat sashimi and nothing else??

*Rolls eyes at him washing his slice of roast chicken in chicken oil and swallowing the whole oil dripping pc of meat, accompanied by a huge gulp of orange soft drink and attempting to talk at the same time*

i can't even begin to describe what he did that is so inconsiderate... becoz there's simply too much~

*gives up*

Year of the Tiger~

5 more days to the Rarrrr year~
Traditionally ppl dun like the tiger yr becos it isn't very "ji li"~
They prefer dragons~ rabbits~ pretty much anything else...
ostracize the tigers... so ke lian...

I happen to be a tigress.. so i love tigers! haha...
Saw this big tiger money bank and decided to buy it!


Muahaha.. so ke ai de tiger...
Feeding it everyday with as much $1 coinssss as possible.. heez
My motivation to save!!


And... I've got Patrick!!!!



My favouritest starfish! =)



Muahah... I dyed my hair too...
looks abit too brown...
especially under the sun~ whoa!
but oh wellz... dun tink i will re-colour it.. haha..

re-watching shaman king cos i rem i din finish e whole thing e last time i watched..

doing anything n everything but mugging...

But i just love days when i don't have to work!

quiet mornings when i work PM...
wake up abt 9+...
eat some breakfast...
watch some youtube...
checks emails...
online shop abit...
n it's off to work...

sooo looking forward to sunday when I can finally break for 2 weeks!
wellz... maybe not exactly break totally..
coz have to start mugging for the upcoming exams...
but still.. I get to nua at home! =)

e other day e shop auntie gave me a bottle of pineapple tarts!
so sweet of her! I tot she only gave my boss... but she gave 1 to me too!
yum yum yumz!
new yr goodies come my way! =)

yesterday 1 customer commented tat we have v old fashion systems in e shop...
cos i was writing e gst claims for him.. ( town outlets have e machine to do it... =S)
I tink we seriously shld get updates for our systemsss alrdy...
it's happening slowly... but at least it's progressing... =)

First e label printer.
Second e fax n printer.
Third e aircon.
Woohoo! What's next?

Random 1
Just found some unidentified object on my window sill... yucks!

Random 2
Too long since I cleaned up.. muahaha...
ok.. shall take the week before new yr to de-clutter and clean up here and there...
=P

Random 3
Needs to control my urge to shop...
wahahah... getting broke...
n I still haven't bought my patrick!
*fears that it is being sold out as I blog.. *

Random 4
facebk disabled my acct again... yes it's again...
last time cos got someone "hacked" into my acc and asked ppl for $$
n they resolved it within 2 days...
now... this time they are taking forever...
and i have no idea what happened that resulted in them having to disable my acct.
not tat I use my fb acct very often.. but it's juz i have a whole lot of my photos n stuff in there!
*prays someone responds fast enough*
n to stupid hackers/scam-mers: STOP USING MY ACCT! NO ONE WILL RESPOND TO YOU!
*sigh*

Random 5
getting fat and i get more stagnant...
wahaha.. sedentary lifestyle...
shall try to get more active k... *try~~*

ok... this is an emo nite~

i'm tired... (may i'm hypothyroid... y am i always tired??)
but i dun feel like slping...
i dun feel like talking to anyone...
i dun feel like i have anyone to talk to anyway...

i do tink i'm anti-social...
n i probably dun have any fren/s whom i can be emo to... (used to tink there was someone.. but now i dun tink so...)
n a huge spoilsport...
n stupid to be emo n start feeling sorry for myself...

maybe abit cheated but i chose it myself anywayz..
so wat's there to be so sianz abt...

maybe i shldn't even post this...
maybe i shld just write it in a notebk like wat i used to do...
wth... ...
wellz... at least there's enuff emo songs to last me thru e emo nite...

n it's great tat i have to work tml... *rolls eyes*
at least it's AM...
*sigh*

I bought a new CD!

=)

I like Harlem's songsss~~

He rocks! woohoo~!!

My blog is dying! (or is it dead alrdy?)

Merry Xmas eve!
Today or rather yesterday nite is the first time I actually felt christmasty this yr~

All becos I went starbucks to get a mocha frappe after work. I wanted to get some help staying awake while I slogged away for proj... (all becos I procrastinated waaaayyyyy too much.. haha~)
The staff were all v enthu and high despite it being late in the nite~ With their friendly smiles and fantastic attempts at upselling, I could help but smile back and enjoy my delicious drink. *loves starbucks during xmas!* =) anyway... coffee makes me high~! (no need alcohol... haha!)

Read some fantastic books over these few weeks... I always enjoy the usual easy to read stuff that cheers me up (e.g. humour + romance fiction... i'm not really into reading heavy content stuff when i alrdy feel so drained from work and etc everyday~)... these books i picked up from the lib were perfect! they helped me pass time on the train rides to and fro work everyday~ I haven't been reading for soooo long... i almost forgot how much i enjoy reading... give me a nice book and i can spend 1 whole day reading it and feel contented~ =) + some chocolate and nice mocha = pure bliss...

on a side note... a customer asked me where i bot my ear stud the other day... she tot it was a real diamond cos it looked bling bling~ haha...so funny~ i where got $$ to get real diamond~ told her it was fake and she looked surprised~ nxt time can jus wear fake small bling bling diamond look-a-like n no one can tell e diff~ muahahah... (maybe except the jewellery shop ppl.. =P)

okioki~ time to get back to working! hopes i can finish asap k! =)

Merry Xmas Eve to all again!

Memories...

Was taking a look at my facebook photos...
Din know it had accumulated to 460!
I know many others probably have much more photos than me...
but for someone who dun bring camera ard much, tat is definitely alot of photos...

anywayz....
the gd old times seem sooo far away now...
i miss my days in nus! (except for e fyp part~)
i miss being a student lo~~
saw photos of taiwan trip...
of cambodia trip...
of YEP in india... (soooo glad i decided to join this in yr 3!!)
convocation photos...
pharmily run photos...
wahhh... so fun... so happy... so carefree...

wang shi~ zhi neng hui wei~~~

i just have to grumble!

omg.. some ppl are just annoying!
if you dun trust me... dun ask me anything at all...
never even ask properly den anyhow point and give that annoying face!
nag nag nag at everyone all e time...
not i do one also say i do! *arrghhh!!*
anyhow say things!!
keep instructing ppl to do this n tat.. u tink u boss ah!!!
irritating wah~~!!
totally spoil my mood!
*angry*

soooo totally going to ignore watever she says~
*prawwhhh!!*
other than tat, i'm totally fine~

so many things to do, so little time...
never-ending world of work~

$$Cha-Ching!$$

spending more and more money recently...

spending on food la..
cabbing la...
clothes la...
transport la...

tsk tsk.. needs to find a better way to manage my finances if i want to be a millionaire! >.<"